To be a 9+ pointer or a 6 pointer..?

Confused

Blogging 4 weeks after getting into NIT-Rourkela(B.tech CS…oh yes my wish was granted)…so called one of the premier institutes for getting a B.tech in various fields…

The Question that has been daunting me since my admission here is,whether to slog for the next 4 years to get a high paying job and slog even more….or enjoy the blue days of engineering next 4 years of life…without caring about rest of my life ?

Many may disagree on this saying that getting 9+ points are only for elite students…who study while eating,sleeping,walking,talking…even in the loo…to be a 6 pointer appears rather easier…just stay away from books..enjoy life have fun to the fullest..!

My experience past days here brings a out a rather new theory…”You Can Be What You Want To Be”..means its completely in my hands where I want in my future to be, in elite group…or the funk group..:P

I have alwayz been somewhere in between the two…had freedom with restrictions…many of you may have been in between the 2..some may have been on extremities of either too..anyway…\m/

To decide on which side i should be i tried improvising both..here’s how it goes :

Let me imagine being a 9+ pointer(it always sounds more lucrative):
Life would be monotonous,some what like waking up at 5 am,pray for being a 10-pointer,studying for a couple of hours,have breakfast and reach classroom 15 minutes before lecturer enters.Sit attentively in lecture(ignoring the LLBs),take rigorous notes,answer every question sincerely.After this evening coming to room(or any place suitable for studying) do all assignments plus revise everything taught and read future topics if time persists..take dinner and go to sleep(may be listen a couple of songs lying on bed)..and so on…
Then come the weekends holidays..wake up…wrap up silly chores that cant be done on weekdays..and sit afresh and study 3-4 hours..lunch..short nap..again study..and dinner …chat for a while with room-mates and sleep.Sunday,special prayers for being a 10 pointer..study again..watch a movie or a bit of time pass on insistence by room-mates preparing for coming week…dinner and sleep…
And yes..getting self-ragged by seniors..assuming them to be gods and obeying every word said by them..be it singing,dancing,cracking vulgar jokes…or even proposing a senior girl(turns out to be HOD’s daughter in worst cases)…in short being mere puppets to seniors.

Review:Dumb shit..who the hell wants to waste 4 years with books…i want to enjoy my life here fly like a free bird,hell with the future…!

Now lets try being the 6-pointer(appears simple but is tougher actually):
Totally dynamic life..full of surprises like getting thrown out of class for doing nothing..and other wild punishments..messing with seniors..
The day in this part actually starts at 5 pm after soundly sleeping in all lectures..have snacks and go to play any god-damn sport..or swim or watch a movie..or do time pass online..or attend some stupid orientation of a club(which you have no idea what is it for)..you never run out of options to kill time…if you ever do just take a book in hand..and instantly every other thing apart from studying will become interesting (including staring at the wall)..well..after having fun till 9-10 pm…come back and have dinner…again roam around with friends till mid-night..back to hostel room…either go online,play pc games..or simply watch movies…rarely sleep….continues til 5-6 am..take a short power nap…until some room-mate kick your Ass saying that some its some idiot’s lecture on some bull-shit topic (that has nothing to do with me)…dress-up on bed…and then brush teeth,break-fast..pick up any random book(just for sake of having one)…zoom on my bicycle…enter 10 minutes after lecturer enters…go to second last(last benchers are alwayz caught) and sleep peacefully..zzzzzzzzzz…!
Ohh..week-end holidays just get more interesting..waking up at noon and having lunch…just go some where outside campus with/without seniors(on their expense)…have fun..and come back by mid-night..or some times sleep with seniors and directly come back next  morning..Sunday mid-night..remembering to do a useless assignment..search half hostel for some one whose done it..coax him to give you that assignment..promise to return it back before lecture..phew…!
Review:Holy shit..haven’t enjoyed so much ever in life..but what am i going to be at the end of 4 years..? a mere job-less engineer..! sounds horrible aint it..?

Now you see why its so difficult for me to select one of those options…!
And to those who say…why not study n enjoy too..be a 7-8 pointer…life is totally waste doing that…you’ll study a bit and the 10 – pointer will take away a creamy job from you…
You’ll enjoy a bit,but with restrictions and fear you miss the actual enjoyment,fun and freedom of life…its total waste being in between of the two situations (some where i am caught right now..huh…..F&*K off…!)

Why Dream Big

Right from our childhood we are told ….growing up aint a child’s play….its hell lots of responsibilities…yes its right…but its abosolutely wrong that life becomes boring then…its we who make it boring.

There are 2 ways: 1.dream big and then work ur ass-out to achieve it…or 2.see ur limitation and thn dream of wat u can do in ur capacity…

Well most people think they are following the first choice…or atleast they wish to pursue the first choice….but in reality….there’s one in thousand who actually dares to dream BIGGGG…..and one in 10,000 who sustains that big dream…..and one in a million who actually achieves his BIG DREAM.

But i am still not convinced that whats better…of course dreaming big is cool….motivating..but working as per ur resources is what we call planned efforts….to me both are equally right and significant….but then how do we decide whats best for an individual ?

I started my childhood dreaming to be a scientist…reason was simple….when i was 3-4 yrs old…there were a few earthquake incidents that were in news…to my inquisitive mind, my parents simply told that scientists have an idea as to when it would happen and could save so many lives….on the other side my mom wanted me to be a docter….i said id rather be a scientist and save many more lives than being a docter being limited to his clinic…well no one could argue with me on that !

Few more years passed…Recession had hit us all…..lots of financial problems…i was about 12….being a scientist was a dream at back of my mind,but i was deflecting from it….computers were going cheaper…mobiles in market…at affordable price….it fascinated me like others…then dad had to close his office….so his pc was home….i was  on cloud 9….in no time i got the knack of it and soon learnt a bit of animation..basically what my dad had started his career with…but softwares were expensive…trial versions would only work 15 days…..a friend of dad had knew to crack softwares…..he came home to crack the latest software “3D studio Max”…i was silently watching his efforts were going vain…atlast they both without success…..i decided to give it a try…..n VOILA….i cracked it in 45 mins…i aint boasting…but it was a top of world feeling…..in no time i decided that i would be a software engineer….

I was 14…a neighbour of mine had a cousin who had completed software engineering and started with a job 25,000 a month…back then(it was 2006) it was luxury…took guidance from him.

I was 16….given my SSC exams….attended a seminar for career councelling…..got to know that IIT were like the best institutes in the country to be an engineer…. but i needed extra coaching and it costed a lot…..some how we managed and i got enrolled…..now i was starting to break my habit of limiting my dreams….i learnt to dream big….was wonderful….coaching was fun….enjoyed studying…i was performing well…but in midst….family problems…had to shift residence…was distracted in college(had a crush on a girl..n was a vry good frnd…then we ceased talking…i was depressed…blah blah) all affected my studies…….some how a couple of months for D-day…was back in action…but the back log was huge……my BIG DREAM collapsed in front of my eyes….but still i would convince myself…il work harder and bring my dream true…

April 11…gave IIT-JEE…was relieved after 2 yrs preps…..calculated marks….and lost hopes coz i expected quite less than cut-off…worked hard for plan B..aieee….gave the exam…was getting satisfactory marks….plan C BITS…got good marks….bad news…we could not afford BITs.

Result:  HSC….86% way beyond expectation(75%)….cleared IIT (not really expected…was happy)….then a bad news…got way less than expected in aieee….admission begun…..dint get into IIT….nor did i get a seat in 1st 3 rounds of aieee….4th list will be out in may be next 12 hrs..hopefully will get a seat somewhere…..

Was dreaming big, out of my capacity a mistake….? Not getting a seat yet a blessing in disguise….? cant say anything now….!

Friend-turned-envying friend-turned-good friend..

Well two years back…wen i 1st entered my IIT coaching class there were a couple of boys who always acted as smart-ass…..not knowing anyone and being of reserved nature….i dint speak to anyone initially…later in a month or so….we five boys were in a group…all 5 were toppers (order kept changing)…

Ravindra:total geek,bookworm,never socialises,totally shy n reserved.

Soumya:A geek,studies too hard,bit social,shameless,always late.

Nevil:Wannabe stud,flirt,studies well,teases everyone.

Ashay:Colourful person,has lots intrests…music, movies, sports, cars,etc… enjoys life fullest and studies well.

And me:quite reserved initially,smart,liked studying few subjects(rest sucked),comp-geek,loves movies n songs also dance..havin lots intrests…but lack guts to pursue all of it…but will surely try each of it…pretty soon..

well this blog is about soumya….initially we were friends…just casual..he too had good knowledge about comp stuff….so we had a lot to talk about…games,softwares,virus-antivirus,new releases….soon he would visit my house regularly to take movie,song,software,etc..we started sharing our veiws,ideas…..cracked silly jokes on everyone and everything….i could jus be myself when with him….he had become an integral part of my life….4-5 months passed….

Then…after a good 6-7 months Nevil n Ashay got bit involved into mischief other students rest 3 of us were more serious about studying…we cracked our own jokes….laughed n enjoyed them…after a month a time came that soumya was fed up of Nevil’s notorious activities…he actually was the victim of each joke.

A couple of months later…i fell in love twice..with 2 girls from college…started drifting away from friends naturally…but then Ashay n I would chat about it…he would give tips n encourage ….eventually became good friends….i went back in studies…..couldnt concentrate was totally heart-broken…to divert mind i watched movies whole nite til wee hours of morning…and would sleep in lectures…missing studies…kept losing marks…

Another  3-4 months…made new friends…moved on from break-up…was again high spirited…it was about 6 months for final exam…covering my backlog…now i started getting envious of rest four of them….they were scoring way better than me….inspite of me working equally hard…was really pissed off…couldnt concentrate properly…..i decided to get isolated….last 2 months…was in total isolation…i started hating all 4 of them coz i couldnt get good marks like them…i would act stubborn..not respond their call/sms…lie to them…nor help them….i acted very mean…it was all jealousy…atlast exams…gave it…expected low marks….

A month later,jealousy had reduced by now…but only i couldnt stand soumya coz he was acting oversmart….then results…BANG…soumya and ashay dint qualify IIT…..n biggest  of life…i qualified it….!

2 months were spent in admission procedure…slowly and eventually soumya realised his mistakes…i too realised that i was wrong ill-treating him….and then today celebrated my 18th B-day with friends…soumya couldnt come ….he was busy packing…leaving for NIT nagpur tomorrow ….he came by to meet me at evening…was with us for 3-4 hrs…then i acoompanied him halfway to him place…i could realise how lonely he was feeling..every other minute he would say…if in future you people come to that NIT..we all will rock…have a blast…and another tonnes of plans….and then this person who never in his life offered us..(atleast me…) to eat/drink anything with him….suddenly asked me…”Hey DJ…lets have an ICE-cream…!”…i was shocked,amused and taken aback…my tummy was full after dinner..had to refuse him…then he said…”ok..atleast have a soda with me…!”…i had to agree…then again while leaving he asked…”Wanna have a choclate..!”…i was totally touched…wondered if he is the same soumya whom i envied so much..?….i realised,he was terribly missing us…after few minutes..he left…..with a heavy heart…my eyes were moist,lump in the throat after bidding him good-bye….MISS U so much soumya

Yippie its my 18th Birthday !

I have always cherished this moment waiting all my childhood,to be what its said an ADULT.

But entering my 18th year, i realise there are so many things that i am surely gonna miss now on.

Il miss my college that i hardly attended…but even (ethically) bunking it was so much fun…running from nook to corner on sighting Vice-principal,swinging that ID card in hand rather than having it hanged on my neck.Boldly entering the class…each time as first time..! I am surely going to miss the roof-top of my college where i shared a few best moment with a very good friend…it was an eternal bliss…felt like an island..far away from rest of the world.Getting completely nostalgic walking down the memory lane.

Next thing to miss is my coaching class(dont bother about the name..was for IIT-JEE..which i bymistakely cleared..but still not secured a seat there) …i never missed a single lecture…damn..!(except for test series). But i must admit….i would fall asleep in so many lectures…sitting in corner of the first bench..! Of late i then discovered…a couple of girls from the class always saw me sleeping and wildly imagined stuff that i am yet to figure out.One even pronounced a theory that i wear T-shirt matching colour of my pen…duh..! accidently it was true few times….other day she would match my pencil,eraser,etc to my jeans,sandals,etc…!

I definately miss the library,the place which i spent 14 hrs a day last month before IIT-JEE. Few friends would come visit me to see if i really existed…. coz i was totally out of contact those days..trying to get serious…but damn…there was this one girl studying there(she was 4-5 yrs elder to me)….she was so cute….that she would always catch my sight and i would get a reason to peep out of my books…actually she was the inspiration for me to be there for 14 hrs…she would come morn by 8.30 and go home by night 10.30….i used to secretly follow her each night…thinking someday il surely manage to strike a conversation (even imagined a million way to start conversations…another blog for that soon)…and a couple of days before my exam i was kinda busted…she suddenly stopped mid-way…actually her friend just passed by…but to be safe i just got on my bicycle and fleed….never saw her after that…wish i had taken a pic of hers…..miss her each time i see the library…or even books….every time the song “your beautiful-James blunt” would play i would become ecstasic,testosterone flowing…

Another thing il miss is the rumours of me liking,dating,seeing,being best friends,etc with a girl from our college whom i was least intrested in….and hopefully it was the same from her side….though i ocasionally spoke to her…..but nothing ever clicked.

theres so much more il miss from these years of my life…..!

Anyways bidding adieu to my past and moving to a bright future (wearing sunglasses)…..wishing my self a happy birthday…!

Wish and you have it..!

I saw a documentary..or rather an episode called “THE SECRET”..i dont exactly know from where did it come …mostly from some friend of mine…initially i was confused as to what was being conveyed in it…it was intresting enough to keep me glued….!

It said that most of us are unaware of a secret….a secret that came in to existence..when life started..not on Earth…but in this gigantic universe…many of the known great men from history(shakesphere,newton,lincoln,edison,einstein…many more)  knew that secret…but none shared it…!

The secret can get you ANYTHING you want …really want..! The secret in “THE LAW OF ATTRACTION “(not the law of gravitation that newton discovered..its known by the whole world).You can achieve your dreams by knowing to apply the secret.

What you are today is what your thoughts have attracted yesterday…THOUGHTS BECOME REAL THINGS…no exceptions..! If you think of luxury..you will have it…but if u think of not having debts…you will never get rid of debts..! When you think positive…you attract positive vibes….same with negative thoughts.

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