Right from our childhood we are told ….growing up aint a child’s play….its hell lots of responsibilities…yes its right…but its abosolutely wrong that life becomes boring then…its we who make it boring.
There are 2 ways: 1.dream big and then work ur ass-out to achieve it…or 2.see ur limitation and thn dream of wat u can do in ur capacity…
Well most people think they are following the first choice…or atleast they wish to pursue the first choice….but in reality….there’s one in thousand who actually dares to dream BIGGGG…..and one in 10,000 who sustains that big dream…..and one in a million who actually achieves his BIG DREAM.
But i am still not convinced that whats better…of course dreaming big is cool….motivating..but working as per ur resources is what we call planned efforts….to me both are equally right and significant….but then how do we decide whats best for an individual ?
I started my childhood dreaming to be a scientist…reason was simple….when i was 3-4 yrs old…there were a few earthquake incidents that were in news…to my inquisitive mind, my parents simply told that scientists have an idea as to when it would happen and could save so many lives….on the other side my mom wanted me to be a docter….i said id rather be a scientist and save many more lives than being a docter being limited to his clinic…well no one could argue with me on that !
Few more years passed…Recession had hit us all…..lots of financial problems…i was about 12….being a scientist was a dream at back of my mind,but i was deflecting from it….computers were going cheaper…mobiles in market…at affordable price….it fascinated me like others…then dad had to close his office….so his pc was home….i was on cloud 9….in no time i got the knack of it and soon learnt a bit of animation..basically what my dad had started his career with…but softwares were expensive…trial versions would only work 15 days…..a friend of dad had knew to crack softwares…..he came home to crack the latest software “3D studio Max”…i was silently watching his efforts were going vain…atlast they both without success…..i decided to give it a try…..n VOILA….i cracked it in 45 mins…i aint boasting…but it was a top of world feeling…..in no time i decided that i would be a software engineer….
I was 14…a neighbour of mine had a cousin who had completed software engineering and started with a job 25,000 a month…back then(it was 2006) it was luxury…took guidance from him.
I was 16….given my SSC exams….attended a seminar for career councelling…..got to know that IIT were like the best institutes in the country to be an engineer…. but i needed extra coaching and it costed a lot…..some how we managed and i got enrolled…..now i was starting to break my habit of limiting my dreams….i learnt to dream big….was wonderful….coaching was fun….enjoyed studying…i was performing well…but in midst….family problems…had to shift residence…was distracted in college(had a crush on a girl..n was a vry good frnd…then we ceased talking…i was depressed…blah blah) all affected my studies…….some how a couple of months for D-day…was back in action…but the back log was huge……my BIG DREAM collapsed in front of my eyes….but still i would convince myself…il work harder and bring my dream true…
April 11…gave IIT-JEE…was relieved after 2 yrs preps…..calculated marks….and lost hopes coz i expected quite less than cut-off…worked hard for plan B..aieee….gave the exam…was getting satisfactory marks….plan C BITS…got good marks….bad news…we could not afford BITs.
Result: HSC….86% way beyond expectation(75%)….cleared IIT (not really expected…was happy)….then a bad news…got way less than expected in aieee….admission begun…..dint get into IIT….nor did i get a seat in 1st 3 rounds of aieee….4th list will be out in may be next 12 hrs..hopefully will get a seat somewhere…..
Was dreaming big, out of my capacity a mistake….? Not getting a seat yet a blessing in disguise….? cant say anything now….!
